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November 4, 2009 @ 12:04 AM

Marcos

October 30, 2009

I was at home when I decided to be at home and be busy in front of our desktop. The usual thing that I do is login to my yahoo messenger account and check my kitchen if my dishes are ready to server and harvest my crops from my farm. Until I heard..

*toot*

him: hi

me: hello, musta?

him: ayos lang. asan ka?

me: nasa bahay, naglalaro. sayang wala ka nung umuwi si joey.. you missed a lot of inom moments!

him: uu nga eh, tatampo xa. hindi na nga ako pinapansin.

Then we continued to have a small talk about my life and his life. It’s been four years, since we saw each other and usually, ym is our way to communicate. There were times that he’ll never reply or will say emotional things to me because of our bitter break up. Let’s call him Marcos.

Well at least, he’s now matured and ready to speak up with me and be casual.. I think. Joey once told me that till now, Marcos told her that he’s still in love with me after all these years. She had advised Marcos to ask me out and try to be with him again.

Anyways, I told Marcos that I was pretty emotional during that day. He asked me out if it is okay to roam around and have a couple of drinks or so. I can’t say yes to him because I was waiting from a reply of my Team Lead if my VL was approved or not.

Funny thing here is it took me I think 6 hours to decide and we met in our meeting place. What really caught my attention was his weight! I never imagined him seeing that way.. he gained a lot! I was like, “Hi Marcos, ang taba taba mo na! Tabaching ching ka na!!” He just looked at me and said, “Akala ko ba emo ka? Meron bang emo na naka mini skirt at naka PINK bag?!” I just answered, “Ako lang yun.”

We checked for any available place wherein we can talk and have some time together. We went to the place where we (college friends) used to hang out when we like to sing our hearts out. We even visited our school and well, they were also surprised to see us together again. Lakas nga nila mang asar, grabe!

Anyways, since there were no available place near the area, he asked me if it is okay if we head our way to Petron. The very memorable Petron, I told myself then I agreed.

We had a lot of conversation and as I looked at him, he seems really okay and happy with his girlfriend. He was funny as he tried to reverse whatever happened between us in the past. I was like, excuse me, you’re the one who had an affair with your best friend then I got even and I decided to ditch you and be with *o**t. “Isang buwan nalang, one year na sana tayo Marcos.”

He just answered, “Akala ko ba ikaw may kasalanan? Iniwan mo nga ako db kasi you decided na sumama sa Batangas saka ayaw mo ako isama.”

I answerd back, “Gagu, nakipaglandian ka kasi kay E*r* kaya pala lakas ng loob mong maki pag hiwalay sa akin nun ah!”

Marcos replied, “Hindi no, si George may kasalanan nun! Na misinterpret niya yung CD.”

then I said, “Tanga, hindi ka lang marunong magtago ng kalokohan mo. Concern nga sa akin si George nun. Buti nga sinabi niya sa akin yung nakita niya no!”

08.

Me and Marcos five years ago @ Petron

Before he left, he kept saying that after all these years, he still can’t move on at nanghihinayang siya after what had happened to us. Marcos never failed to look at me and hold his hand over mine. As I glanced upon him, I really saw his facial expression, he mean it. I told him whatever happened between us is finally over and he needs to love his girlfriend and be loyal with her. We’re now separated and God has a reason why our story had ended up that way.

Honestly, for the month of October, I managed to meet up my ex’s and be able to close whatever happened between our relationship. I had forgiven them and I hope they’re happy with their current significant other.

I still need to accomplish one thing for me to totally get over from all the shits I had in my past. Although, I’m still deciding if I’ll do it or no. I know if I decided to do it, it will help me fully forgive and move on with my life.

I know to myself that I had moved on, I just want to say my last thoughts to him then leave.

{ music } Realize by Colbie Caillat | 911 by Paraluman
{ show } my kitchen in cafe world
{ mood } pensive

Posted by kidbaliw under real world, moving forward, the past

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Comment posted on November 4th, 2009 at 12:36 AM

wow thats nice. id love a closure myself too :)

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