I decided to paste the pixies that I had printed out last week in my planner. It’s my interest to take pictures then compile it or make a collage.
Besides, it is another way for me to keep the memories that my mind tends to forget by force.
I locked in my ears with Taylor Swift’s album as I look back at the events that were involved in the pictures. I wasn’t contented and I decided to look at my 2008 Planner and read through the pages.
When I hit the first page for the month of December, I was surprised that I wrote the following notes:
12/3/08 5:55 PM PS (PeopleSupport) 4th Floor
Everything falls in their right places right now. There was a lot of depression that happened this year. I had lost and found new things that really changed me right now.
I let go of ***** and then I met ******. I got a new LOB at workplace and I’ll be on training for TSS. My stats are all okay except for QA (hehe). I’m trying to love my work and get used to the stress level it gives me everyday. I love my friends’ right now coz they were there when I needed someone to comfort me.
I got my planner from Starbucks and I’m planning to get something for my mom as well.
Hoping things will be better next year.
“I wish normal people have a heart that vampires do.. Once they fall in love, they never FALL out of love.”
-Twilight
I was like, wow.. I managed to write this kind of cheesy stuff? It saddens me, yes but I guess this is how it should be. Things will never be the same as it used to be. I will go on and move forward for I had decided to erase the things that will remind me of both of them. The event that happened on October 4 really changed me.
I know that in time, both of them will regret after all what they had done to me. For now, I know they’re happy with their respective partners and I don’t care. I maybe alone for now but I’m more than happy than living a complicated life and compromising my happiness.
When I’m gone, I will never allow any means of communication. After what had happened, I can’t treat them as it was before… not even as friends.
