Entries for December, 2008
- Magdodonate din ako sa mga institutions na kumakalinga sa mga matatanda, homeless children, disabled people & needy family.
- I'll travel the world at pupuntahan ko lahat ng tourist destination nila. haha!
- Kukuha ako ng franchise ng Starbucks para I can get Frap anytime I want.
- Bibilhin ko mga luho ng magulang ko. Syempre I want them to experience the best in life!
- Shopping galore ito!
- Bibilhin ko yung pinaka astig na gadgets right now.
- Papaparty ako and sky's the limit ito!
- Paaralin ko mga kapatid ko sa magagandang schools to give them better education.
- I'll give money for my relatives na gipit sa buhay. I think budget for any business they want para naman may mapagkukuhanan sila.
- Pagagamot ko mom ko. I want her to be healthy coz I don't want her to see her struggling with her sickness.
- Tatayo ako ng sarili kong business para hindi ako mawalan ng pera at iikot mga milyones ko. Ahaha!
- Try ko mag liwaliw sa Las Vegas.. Hehe.
- The rest? Time deposit sa bank.. Habang nag iisip ako kung saan ko gagastusin ang pera ko. :D
Syet.. Sana meron nga ako ganitong kaperahan..
*Im not tagging anyone. Just read it.. yun lang! Salamat kay spoofed sa pag tag. Hehe.
{ music } I could never take the place of your man by Jordan Knight
{ book } www.w3schools.com
{ mood } jealous
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world, what I'm feeling
Her mind's in chaos and I don't know how to pacify her.
She asked me, "Is there something wrong in me that I always end up being taken for granted?" I just stared at her as her tears started to fall on her cheeks. I wanted to hug her and tell her the right words to lift her spirit... but I can't. I wish I can take away the pain she's feeling right now.
She feels being tortured inside and no one hears her scream for pain. "I'm always misunderstood" she added.
"Maybe I'm stupid enough.." she whispered to me.
"No you're not. They just don't see your worth", I replied.
Hit the sack now my dear. I will always be here for you listening to your angst in life. I'm sorry if I can't take it away.
This kind of battle will always be between you and me. You can get through this.. I know you will. Been there.. done that..
"But it keeps getting harder as I get older.."
My dear, that's how the real world works.
{ music } ordinary people by john legend
{ mood } crushed
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, reel world
After 1 1/2 years of being a CSR in our account, here I am part of the new batch for Technical Support. Next week we'll take hosting calls and it really freaks me out inside! No more primary contact drivers, email reset fax request, email configuration (siguro konti nalang.. unlike nung csr ako..), imagecafe? (welcome to the world of invalid transfer nicey.. har! har!), escalated fax request, nameserver change drivers, domain whois drivers & so on.
Today we'll be on day 3 for our TSS Training & Myls is our trainer. 12 eReps (Vets & Newbies) were called to be part of the training. I get to meet new people and learn more knowledge about our product in technical terms. From HTML, hosting control panel, database, FTP, Virtual Private Servers, Site Secure Layer Certificate, E-commerce Packages & so on will be the nature of our calls... nextweek.
I got my new domain name. I have plans to create my own site but we'll see how my webbie will look like in the coming days. 
This year was a one heck of a rollercoaster ride. But I'm learning with each adversity I had experienced. I hope next year things will be better.
I still can't believe it that I'm going to be a TSS. Am I ready to take hosting calls?
**13 month pay?! Woohoo!
{ music } Feels like tonight by Daughtry
{ mood } scared
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world
This is it..
"Thank you for calling Technical Support this is.."
According to our trainer Myls, nesting na namin around 9 PM. Meaning we'll take live TSS calls! Meaning no more Tier 1 calls, no more Janis Brazant or CSR issue. Sa totoo lang I'm not ready to take TSS calls parang ano ba.. huy! Bakit ngayon na? Syet! OMG! Ngayon na ba talaga ito? Pwede after 10 lightyears? (haha)
Paano ko na iaassist pag database or ftp connection error ang issue ng caller ko? What if internal server error ang nangyayari or something else like scripts, html or asp is not working.. Ano gagawin ko?
Guys sorry ha? I'm freaking out na talaga.. as in!
Pwede bang mag back out? hehe. 
{ music } Single by Neyo
{ book } BuildMyMobi Training Module | Servicing Hosting Accounts Training Module
{ mood } crazy
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world
Well this is a conversation with my ex..
At least he was sorry to whatever he had done in the past. Tapos na yun, the damage was done and we're better off as friends. 
May time na nag sisisi daw siya (which I doubt) to what had happened between us. Hindi naman xa ganun kasakit though. Haha.
Parang
wahatever he has right now, he should try to accept it and be as a man.
I feel sorry to what his status right now. If ever na kami nga, well I
don't think maeexperience niya yung naeexperience niya ngayon. Pero
sinabi ko nalang usap nalang sila, saka he should be firm and act like
a man. Never hurt her emotionally or physically kahit ano pang ginagawa
niya sa kanya.
Girls are meant to be treated as a queen. Dapat sila irespeto, silbihan at mahalin ng walang kahati (nyek! may ganun pa?).
Napaka
ironic nga kasi nabasa ko somewhere na ang guys gusto nila sila ang
first love ng mga girls. As for girls naman gusto natin tayo ang last
romance ng guys natin.. Agree?
Karamihan sa mga friends ko sa
akin sila tumatakbo ng problems nila with their husbands or wives. I
really feel sorry for them talaga whenever I hear bad stories from
them. Totoo ngang sakit sa ulo at matindihang pag uunawa ang dapat mong
gawin lalo na pag sakit sa ulo napangasawa mo. It's really true
that as we go older love becomes more complicated to handle. Nasa atin
yun kung paano natin ihahandle ang mga ganun na bagay.
Ako kaya? Haha. 
{ music } Just Stand Up by Various Artist
{ mood } contemplative
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
"Can I speak with someone else coz I think you don't know what you're doing"
-I was really frustrated when I heard that from a call I got. First call ko yun at grabe.. kakaloka!
The customer's concern was about database for wordpress. He asked for his log in that he can use to connect via his database.
Eh hindi naman naturo sa training namin yun so I was really off guard na hey.. Wait lang naman.. ending? Ayun sup call xa. Kakahiya nga e!
Super na frustrate talaga ako as in. Anjan yung gusto kong umiyak at umuwi na lang dahil sa nanagyari.
But when I was in the lung center, naisip ko na I should be strong. This are the type of calls that I'll be getting from now on. I should get use to it. I must also feed my mind about our products para kahit super tekie tekie yung kausap ko aba makakasabay ako.
"Do you love watching american movies? Coz you're accent's nice unlike with other people I had spoken with."
-Kahit na masama yung first call ko, natuwa naman ako sa narinig ko. Well I thanked him for the complement. He was nice as well at ako'y bolera.. Wahahaha! Nabentahan ko kasi xa. Sabi nga ng kasama ko ayos nga daw at nakabola nanaman ako. Hehe. saka ano ba kuya, trabaho ko ito so I should sound your accent.. heler?!
How is it being a TSS? One word.. Nosebleed! Feeling ko ang dami ko dapat matutunan pa, ayoko naman mapahiya sa mga customers ko no. Besides ayoko din madegrade ako.. I know I don't deserve to be treated like that!
Im just trying to cope up with the stress I'm dealing in right now.
Baby steps ika nga.. Kaloka nga baka puro ako bagsakan portion sa QA ko. Ahihihi. Patay!
{ music } Just Stand Up - Various Artist
{ mood } anxious
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world, what I'm feeling
Is it really hard to get what I really wanted? Do I always have to feel like this? Are they happy that they're making me feel this way? Do they enjoy hurting me this much? Am I that easy enough that they take me for granted?
Or they just don't see my worth?
{ music } If I were a boy by Beyonce
{ mood } frustrated
Posted by kidbaliw under what I'm feeling
It hurts when you keep on telling to me that you're always the number 2... my option. You're wrong!!
I admit that I was wrong to hide things from you. There were times I wished I had known you before I met him. You came along when I needed someone.. someone who will see the real me.
I tried my best to hide that guilt feeling. I told to myself that I will never fall inlove with you because I still have him in my life. I was in a relationship yet it feels like I don't have one. I tried my best to hold on even if I was neglected and taken for granted by him. I was blinded by my emotions that time and because of that I took your presence for granted as well.
We can call it quits.. right?
I choose you because you had showered me the love that I was looking for all along. I let go of a love that I thought it will last. Maybe I was the only one who thought of that idea..
I told you I can compromise things if you're also willing to do your part. I'm sorry if I had hurt your ego and caused you so much pain.
Even if it's full of thorns, I'd rather choose to embrace your love and get hurt. Crazy as it may seems but I don't care.
Forget what we had done in the past.. We're both victims here.
I'm sorry with what I had done. I know it was wrong.. I'm a bad girl here.. Always a bad girl.. But I'm used to the feeling of being misunderstood though. I just hope that you'll never take me for granted like what he did..
Please handle me with care coz I'm willing to change.. for you.
This kind of feeling scares me most.. I only love once.. will it be a tragic one for me in the end.. again?!
{ music } Flightles Bird American Mouth by Iron & Wine
{ book } Twilight by Stephenie Meyer
{ mood } pensive
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
I love shopping!
Dahil 5 am na ako nakatulog sa kakalaro ng atlantica.. The moment I woke up around 11:00 am, dumiretso na ako sa banyo at naligo. I ate lunch na din at exaktong 2 pm, I went straight to the salon and have a mani & pedicure. Here's the pic:
I hid my thumbnail kasi minurder ni ate.. Bwiset! As in ayaw tumigil ng dugo guys.. Hindi ko nga siya binigyan ng tip.. HMF!
After that I went sa SM Bacoor to pay Gaget sa shirt na inorder ko. To my dismay down ang server ng globe.. Kakainis! Since pissed off ako, I did shopping! Sabi ko it will be an opportunity for me to find a gifts para sa mga minamahal ko. Naks! In fairness, ang sakit sakit sa ulo! Promise! Hirap talaga pag isipan kapag boys ang reregaluhan. Matapos bumili ng contacts ko at lumamon ng biggie meal sa Wendy's.. dumiretso ako sa Robinson's Imus. Hindi na kasi ako nakuntento sa SM kaya umikot pa ako at ang ending? Ayun binilhan ko sarili ko ng mga anik-anik. Natatawa nalang ako sa sarili ko at napaka selfish ko at sarili ko nanaman ang binilhan ko. Har! Har!
Ubos ang Php 1,800 in just a blink of an eye. Ayos! Galing galing ko talaga.
On my way home, may naka away pa ako. Kasi naman ang liit liit ng space tapos yung girl, she came from work and she's wearing a mini-skirt, talagang siniksik niya yung balakang niya. So nagreklamo ako.. Sabi ko "Ano ba, kita mong ang sikip sikip isisiksik mo yang balakang mo!!" She replied, "E ano magagawa ko?". Nainis ako sinagot ko siya, "Then don't force it!! Kita mong masikip na.. Hindi ko ba alam kung tanga ka or what". Yun deadmahan kami. Keber ko. May point naman ako hindi ba? Ayoko kasi ng mga taong epal. Makiramdam naman sana guys. Diba? Diba? Pare-parehas naman kami nagbayad so umayos siya ng asta.. Bitch! Ha! Ha!
Pero meron naman ako nabiling gifts no! Xempre hindi ko na sila kinuhaan kasi gift nga db? Pretty excited sa upcoming holidays. Kita kits nanaman kami ng mga cousins ko! Yipee!
Well just giving myself a reward for a job well done last week. Nainspired naman ako sa sinabi ni Ate Len. I just hope masunod ko ginagawa niya. Natawa lang ako when she told me, "Nicey ang lagi ko naman feedback ay yung pagiging mataray mo sa customer e".. Sorry naman! Hindi talaga mawawala buntot ko. Pero I'll try to sound nice & sweet to stupid customers.. Hihihi! Joke! Basta. Andito pa din ako sa transition stage.. Sana masurpass ko siya. At susundin ko talaga yung sinabi niya kung sino ang dapat ko ilook up the way maghandle ng calls. Sabi niya yung call niya is "Quality Call" daw at dapat kong makuha yun. Well.. Tignan natin. Haha!
{ music } Flightless bird, American Mouth by Iron & Wine | Nobody Wants To Be Lonely by Christina A. & Ricky Martin
{ book } Twilight by Stephenie Meyer
{ mood } bouncy
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
"It’s quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness"
I made a decision. Big girl decision. I'll listen to the people who knows what's good for me. Sometimes I do make stupid decisions that in the end makes me miserable. I believe it will be different this time around.
I won't be selfish anymore. Happy New Year Guys!!
{ music } Bella's Lullaby | Flightless bird, american mouth by Iron & wine (Twilight OST)
{ book } New Moon by Stepenie Meyer
{ mood } numb
Posted by kidbaliw under what I'm feeling
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