Entries for August, 2008
"Beer pa. 100 yung QA mo. 
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The text message I recieved from Len around 10 something na ata yun. I was really happy coz I thought sa huling performance ko this month sasablay ako.. Muntik muntikan pa yun maging B3 at malamang sa malamang EO pa. I was unaware na bawal pala yun.. Mangiyak iyak na talaga ako when she was coaching me.. To think na may gala kami nila Banana sa Music 21.. Well masasabi ko kinaya ko itago yung feeling ko.. Super low talaga pakiramdam ko nun.. from super excited to crying mode.. Ayaw ko naman ispoil ang gala namin so I just hid it sa friends ko.
Music 21 (Jupiter St)
It was a blast!!! It was a farewell keme for Hanna Banana since yesterday was her last day. Ang mga sangkot ay sina Kat, Rose, Darwin, Arlan, Cyril and Ike (Hanna's hubby). Daming foods and drinks at syempre kantahan to the max.. Here are the pics:
Need to say more? The first pic is clickable.. kung walang 'watchdog' makikita niyo full pics
After Music 21 we went straight sa place ni Rose.. Sa isang bar and resto na hindi ko na maalala.. anyways being there parang for me, kat and Cy felt odd.. Nakakadepress yung lighting and everything.. Tapos may mga bebot pa. Pero keri lang.. as usual kanta mode ulit and we continued our drinking sessions.. Tapos sumunod si Sir Ron.. Aliw! Nakakatuwa kasi dumaan siya. sweet! Thanks Sir Ron for dropping by! 
Eion I was having a bugey session with Rose when Ms. Len (QA) texted me about my call.. Para akong nabunutan ng tinik.. whew! At least I can enjoy my restdays na RD talaga!!!
About kay Hanna, Im greatful to be her friend. Mawawalan nanaman ako ng kabugey session during my lunch.. I hope you will achieve your goals in life.. Im sure I'll miss yah marse! Thank you for everything!! Ngayon nag sisink in na sa akin yung pag resign mo sa work.. Nalulungkot ako.. Pero sabi mo nga diba, "Things happen for a reason" so I'll let you go and do what will make you happy. See you in SG!
{ music } When I Grow Up by PCD
{ mood } satisfied
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world, what I'm feeling
I feel this strange anger inside my heart when I woke up.
I just realized that I can't trust you. Whatever happens.. I will do it my way.
As usual I'll drink to pacify myself... Cheers!
{ music } That's what you get by Paramore
{ show } my girl (korean version)
{ mood } angry
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world
I had finished drinking a bottle of red wine. Yes I'm pissed off.. as always! I came from a very long trip today.. Visited my grandfather in the cemetery, went to white plains and strolled around in MOA.
Seeing the temple after a year gave me a pinch in my heart. I know and I'm aware that I will never have that chance to see inside the temple.. But I don't have that regrets.. I used to dream of having the opportunity to be in the temple and get marry someday.. Yeah you read that right.. I used to believe in true love, settling down and having this feeling of wanting a marriage for eternity..
(Gang labas lang si Watshi 
)
But it all changed.. I don't care if people judged me.. They don't know what had happened to me. No one knows what I had gone through..
In fairness my death aniversary is nearing..
{ music } Alone by Heart
{ show } my girl (korean version)
{ mood } numb
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
{ show } my girl (korean version)
{ mood } angry
Posted by kidbaliw under tagtagan!
I don't want to see her. Giving me this feeling that I hate to feel and people misunderstood me for being stubborn.. It's hard for me to open up.. Im the type of person na hindi okey pero technically okey.. I learned how to segregate my feeling kaya ganun.. At least hindi apektado ang work ko..
However when I leave my station.. The emotions I hide finally sinks in and then I feel lost.
How it feels? It sucks big time.
{ music } paris by chicosci
{ show } my girl (korean version)
{ mood } numb
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
**Im just preparing myself sa misa that I'll attend mamaya. This is what I get, they don't undrestand me. It's like I'm always the black sheep.. Like I don't hell care at all.. Bakit hindi naman nila alam what's inside my heart so they have no right to accuse me such things. Kaya kong tanggapin lahat ng sermon later pero sana diba, let me do how I wanted to deal the trial I'm experiencing right now. Im sorry if I'm not that type of girl na will blurt out and burst herself with tears. Im not used to cry in front of a lot of people. Oo na, plastic ako! Akala ninyo wala ako pakialam pero YOU'RE WRONG!! I just don't know how to express it out loud. Hindi ninyo alam how I felt when I first heard the news. Bakit akala ninyo manhid ako? Hell no!
It's really hard to please people who are selfish and narrow-minded! Gusto nila susunod ako kung paano nila ipinakita yung care nila. I'm sorry but I'm not like that. I'm a cold hearted daughter na walang pakialam sa mundo and all that. You guys are wrong! Magsama sama kayo.. Wala akong pakialam! Sanay na ako mag-isa like I'm always against the world. Palagi nalang ako masama sa paningin ninyo.
Bahala na mamaya! Im so used to with sermon and all that. WTF.
{ mood } numb
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
You never fail to make me feel alone. You're always there when I need someone to cry on to, cheers me up when I'm in stress, an ear to listen my angst with the real world. We're like ying and yang.. I'm the bad one and you're the good one.
You had seen my best, worst and my weakest phase.
Thank you for being there and showering me your consistent care.
{ mood } confused
Posted by kidbaliw under hidden letters, reel world, what I'm feeling
What if we get to decide which to choose, a shoes that was yours for years over a new one? Let's say you're in a mall and a shoe got your attention.
It looks new, captivating and very tempting to try. There's your arm reaching for it but then you realized one thing:
The old shoe you're using had taken you to variuos places, walked a thousand miles, shared a lot of rainy moments together and given you warmth and comfort. While the new shoe, hmmm nothing much.. I think! It's like a giant leap of faith to take with. Questions pop in like what if the new shoe give you blisters? What if it cause you pain and uncomfortable feeling?
Will you keep the old one in the closet and leave all the memories behind? Or are you going to take a risk to use the new one and make new moments together?
Think.. Think.. Think!
{ mood } hungry
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
**click on the pictures**
I had fun sa out of town namin nila kat, darwin at rose sa Tanay, Rizal. We did eveything in one day, from inom.. yosi.. (na ginamit ko pang suhol kay kat) rapel.. swimming.. videoke.. kain galore.. at ang favorite namin ni kat, ang leche flan galore!! Mabait yung family ni Rose.. Thanks! Thanks! Kahit na kami nakaubos ng beer ng boss nila.. wahahaha!
I wished na kasama si Hanana Banana para happy! Next time sana makasama sila Eisset at Bon..
Sana maulit ulit xa as in now na!!
{ music } never ever by all saints
{ mood } naeerna!
Posted by kidbaliw under real world
It seems that I can live without you.
Maybe I'm just used to the feeling..
Now I'm confuse.
{ music } violet hill by coldplay
{ mood } confused
Posted by kidbaliw under real world
Well I created a new acount in multiply.. Courtesy of cheska_fayatola.. Thanks girlfriend!
Actually I just wanted to see the pics noong nagpunta kami sa Tanay, Rizal.. Kaya ayun meron na din ako multiply account.. Super simple lang pero keri na rin.
In fairness, nakakalurkey ang pag modify.. Anyways feel free to browse my site: http://kidbaliw.multiply.com
{ music } last night by p. diddy & keyshia cole
{ mood } amused
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
I hate this day! Super toxicated with work. It sucks! I swear!! Non-stop cue.. Escalate.. Sup calls.. Legal Law Suits.. Grrr! Can we just tell them na 'can you please shut up?! it's really frustrating!'
I don't know if the enhancements were good.. It only leads to one hell shift! Tapos may VOC pa? Hai.
Oh well. This is my job.. my career! Naks! Haha!
{ music } my heart by paramore
{ mood } frustrated
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world, what I'm feeling
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