Entries for July, 2008
I was doing my private post about my angst and contrary to it something weird happened..
That 'force' points me to do the other way..
I don't believe in those stuffs but they happened! I don't know if I just give a damn to those things but it really gave me creeps inside.
The list gave me a wapish in my head.. Yeah men!! Go ahead click it.
{ music } too little too late by jojo
{ show } iyotube feat moymoy palaboy (don domeng's site)
{ mood } annoyed
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
"Hold on if you feel like letting go"
When do we give up? Is it when things turn out the way we didn't expected to be? We drink and smoke our miseries away, cry alone in our room cursing why shit happens in your life. Try to upgrade ourself, change numbers and try to be not the person since the day they left us.
I will keep on holding the broken glass in my hand.
This pain is so sweet that it slowly kills me inside. Getting numb everyday.. Don't worry coz I'm used to it. 
(This blog is not for me.. wala lang! Nifeel ko lang yung mga nababasa ko elsewhere.. 
)
{ music } wait and bleed by slipknot
{ show } moymoy palaboy music videos
{ mood } devious
Posted by kidbaliw under liner, real world
You like people, but you're careful about who you get close to. Friendship is important to you... so important that you aren't just friends with anyone.
-yah. Im a bit choosy and snobbish. 
You have cold feet when it comes to love. You have a lot of uncertainty until you convince yourself to dive right in.
-when i love it really takes time for me to fall dangerously in love. I've been through hell I don't want to get hurt again.
You are a deep and contemplative person. You are as passionate as everyone else, but your passion is not always apparent.
-my mind's deep as the ocean. No one knows what's really inside my insane mind.
Your sense of humor is goofy and silly. You are good at making almost anyone laugh.
-im crazy a lot of times.. People do laugh at my stupidity.
{ music } payong by denise laurel
{ show } kung fu panda
{ mood } crazy
Posted by kidbaliw
Im too hard to handle. Im selfish.. It's better this way..
Fine. If that's what you want.. go ahead.
{ music } falling away from me by korn
{ mood } aggravated
Posted by kidbaliw under real world
I wanted to run away..
When I feel like this I just leave and never return back. I leave no trace so people can't find me.
Can I just clear the cache of my life like a browser?
{ music } The way I are by Timbaland feat Keri Hilson
{ show } volare by moymoy palaboy
{ mood } gloomy
Posted by kidbaliw under real world, what I'm feeling
After 41:12 minutes of having a conversation with my stupid customer.. I was browsing my favorite website and I got teary eyed in my station reading this sad blog. The story was a bit long so I'll just write here the lines which really pinched my heart.
I had a dream last night. It was about you. I found myself weeping and trying to divert the incoming thoughts rushing through my mind.
do you know that the pain you've caused me is more than excruciating?
I've managed to continue living without your thoughts. But when i go to bed and close my eyes? I see you. The only familiar face i've ever known. Crying...
But you're so great with causing me pain. Now you invaded my dreams.
I HATE YOU.
Sorry if i have to hate you. That is the only way that i'l be able to forget you.
The Studying
The Alcohol
The Gimiks
The Flirtings
Still not enough.
And the more i try....
The more i fail.
And again. You're not here to hug me and tell me evrything will be alright.
Hai. It's really hard when you lost something and there's no way for you to get it back. The guy died from a cancer and the girl was his nurse. They fell inlove.. It was unethical but like what the saying goes.. love is the sweetest sin. Ayt?
It reminded me of my past dream.. All I can remember was there was a guy who was holding my hand so tight.. We're both crying.. He was lying in bed. As far as I can remember as well he was touching a ring in my finger. Saying to hold on, he won't give up. I didn't saw his face..
When I woke up, my pillow was wet with tears.
Weird huh?
{ music } when you're gone by avril lavigne
{ book } http://www.femalenetwork.com/girltalk/index.php/topic,177434.240.html
{ show } moymoy palaboy videos
{ mood } aggravated
Posted by kidbaliw under liner, real world
The wedding went well. It was one of the most elegant weddings she had
seen. Sugar had everything covered and she was a very beautiful,
blushing bride.
"I, Miguel, take you, Sugar, as my friend and love, beside me and
apart from me, in laughter and in tears, in conflict and tranquility,
asking that you be no other than yourself, love what I know of you,
trusting what I do not know yet, in all the ways that life may find
us."
Bea felt a stab of pain hitting her heart. She slowly got up, walked
away from the spectators. Tears streaming down her flushed cheeks.
"I guess this is goodbye?" she told Miguel.
"Wait, I'm not letting you out until you answer question. Did Edward
propose?
Bea showed Miguel her left hand. In it was a one carat diamond
solitaire ring set in platinum. "Yes."
Miguel let out a sigh and congratulated her. As Miguel turned his gaze
from the steering wheel to Bea's face, he saw a single tear fall from
her right eye and then she said, "If it gives any consolation. Edward
was the best version of you that I can find in New York."
This is a sad blog I read.. La lang. It sucks. Hehe! It's about 2 people who were stupid.. Friends sila pero panget ng ending. 
{ music } Filipina Girl by Marcus Davis Jr.
{ mood } amused
Posted by kidbaliw
If you do not know
Where you want to go
You first need to find
Where exactly you stand
Im confused. I'll just ignore the pain... again.
Im so used to it by the way.
{ music } Innocence by Avril Lavigne
{ mood } pissed
Posted by kidbaliw under liner, real world, what I'm feeling
1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
-- I will be outrageous..
2. Who will you choose, the person who loves you or the person you love?
-- Doon ako sa mahal ko..
3. What's your take on same-sex marriages?
-- Paper contract is a shit.. Pero I'm not against with same sex marriage.. Gawin nila gusto nilang gawin!
4.Are you inlove?
-- Ewan ko. Siguro hindi.. Siguro Oo..
5. What's your ideal lover like?
-- Wala akong ganun coz I don't want to be disappointed.
6. loving someone or being loved by someone else?
-- parang kanina din to ha..
7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
-- D wag! Bahala ka.. You're not the onnly man in this world..
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
-- I don't let the feeling grow.. Ayoko kasi manira ng relasyon.. YEs!
9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
-- Yep. Maraming marami!
10. What do you want most in life?
-- Gusto ko makawala sa preso na kinalalagyan ko.
11. Is being tagged fun?
-- Keri lang.
12. Name people you cannot live without?
-- family ko.
13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
-- $t3^3 p@07o @ W@<@2Wp@j
14. What do you think of the person who tagged you?
-- Never ko siya kilala.. PEro carry lang.
15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
-- Syempre single and very very rich!!
16. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you anymore, what would you do/how would you react?
-- Sasapakin ko siya. Loko pala toh! May Alzheimer's?
17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
-- NO. Mas minamahal ko sarili ko first and foremost.
18. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
-- Kung sino at kanino ba talaga ako sasaya.. Not temporarily.
19. What type of friends do you like?
-- Maingay.. Game sa lahat.. Party people!
20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
-- Kukuhanan ko yun ng video.. haha!
Tagged by subtlebliss
{ music } blind by lifehouse (accoustic version)
{ mood } amused
Posted by kidbaliw under tagtagan!
Could I be so affected
Will I stay on your mind
Why am I so infected
The way that we shine
Twisting, turning
As we move further
My own prayer
We will both emerge
Speak now or forever fall into pieces
I took you so fast
The way we are is just a movie sequence
I took you so fast
This song keeps playing in my head. Hai. I wanted to go far away.. Away from this prison I'm in.
{ music } paris by chicosci
{ mood } confused
Posted by kidbaliw under liner, real world, what I'm feeling
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