Entries for April, 2008
"Go to Hell!"
She felt him sliding next to her onto the seat. "No!" she exclaimed, trying to shove him away.
Heedless of her resistance, Jacques pulled her into his arms, holding her against him and letting her exhaust her shrieks and struggles.
His attempt to comfort her only made her feel all the more emotionally devastated. "Please, leave me alone," she pleaded, hiccuping.
He kissed her wet hair and spoke with profound sentiment. "That's the one thing I cannnot seem to do. I cannot leave you alone, cherie, because I love you so."
^ My favorite part with the book I had finished reading right now. Maganda siya.. It gave me goosebumps and played on my imagination with vivid moments.. hehe.
Maganda yung flow ng story.. Daming twist and turns and ang cool!
Anyways it's like the movie Kate and Leopold.. Kulit lang.
I don't know but I have interest with past love thing na yan.. Maybe it's all because of what I saw something when I was in Grade 5. Tapos yun na, nagkanda loko loko na ang 'normal' life ko.
(I'll make a post with what had happened to me)
There are weird things that I usually experience usually ibang tao ang nasasaktan.. promise!
It's like there is someone who guards me all the time.
{ music } with you (remix version)
{ mood } weird
Posted by kidbaliw under liner
Papasok ako when I rode "Venus" Bus from Cavite. I was like thinking something else when something weird happened. Sana when he saw me he will feel the 'regret' and bitterness (x10) sa binigay niya sa akin.
This liners of song reminded me someone..
If I could turn back the time
I'd spend it with you
I want you to know
Even though you're gone
That I'm drowning in tears
I wish you were here
And hear me say
Believe me, I'm sorry
I was like 'okey'.. then it's like I was in 7/11 tapos I was speaking with him and again the scene was we were arguing.
Tapos sabi ko ayos ha.. Ayos talaga! Mukang naka mp3 player yung sinakyan ko.. then I heard this song
Pikit mata
kong iaalay
ang buwan at araw
pati pa sapatos kong suot
Nagtatanong
simple lang naman sana
ang buhay
kung ika'y lumayo
Sasamahan ka sa tamis
Sasamahan ka sa dilim
Sasamahan ka hanggang langit
Sasamahan ka sa tamis
Sasamahan ka sa pait
Sasamahan ka sa dilim
Sasamahan ka hanggang langit Sasamahan ka
I was like.. Nagulat talaga ako! So I just savored the memories I had with the song.. As far as I can remember masaya kami nun..
Biglang nag intro ang kantang ito..
I believe
we shouldnt let the moment pass us by
life's too short
we shouldnt wait for the water to run dry
think about it
cause we only have one shot at destiny
all im asking
could it possibly be you and me?
So if you'd still go, i'll understand
would you give me something just to hold on to?
and if you'll stay, ill hold your hand
cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you
Hmm.. May iba nanaman ako naisip. Actually I hate this song.. This song is the culprit ng pinagsimulan ng lahat. Hai.
Last but not the least bago ako bumaba sa Baclaran eto pinaka malupit:
hindi maipinta ang aking nadarama
hindi maalis ang tamis ng mga tinginan
mas-a-alas dose na pala
ayoko pang kumawala
sa higpit ng mga yakap mo
giliw ko
kung panaginip lamang ito
ayoko na sanang magising
tila isang paraiso tuwing ika'y kapiling
sa uulitin muli
makapiling ka sa bawa't sandali
hindi maitatanggi langit sa'yong mga mata at mga labi
sana noon pa naransan
hinding hindi ipagpapalit kailan man
sa uulitin
I don't know why I heard 'those' songs.. Naiinis din ako sa sarili ko kasi lahat 'sila' binibigyan ko ng kanta or I relate them to a song. Tapos ako din ang parang timang na mageemote emote.. haha!
The problem is within me.
{ music } How To Save A Life
{ mood } melancholy
Posted by kidbaliw under liner
Kaya mong sabihin sa akin lahat lahat without being sensitive of how will I feel.
Tapos saying the f^ck word of 'sorry' you think aayos na ako? Nasaktan na ako.. Kaya mo e! Salamat ha?
Truth really does hurts.. Damn it!
{ music } Suntok Sa Buwan By Session Road
{ mood } rejected
Posted by kidbaliw
I miss being at the mall.. Maxado akong loyal sa work ko.. Wee!
Yesterday was my only RD, ayun birthday ng late grandfather ko so food galore yun. Dumaan muna ako sa Dasma at may sinundo..
Badtrip lang na masaya (in a way) kasi yung relatives ko nilaglag ako sa kasama ko.. Like how I am kapag nagagalit or pag sinumpong ako ng tantrums ko. syet! :D But I love it.. Love talaga nila ako at sinabi ang nega side ko.. Salamat Mommy and Tita!! hmf! :D
Anyways nag mall din ako (yeah after 6 days straight ng work) I guess I deserve to indulge myself and play in the arcade... My god! Namiss ko ang basketball, mag car racing at maglaro.. laro.. laro!
Salamat kasi you're so patient. Bakit ganun? Kahit naiinis na ako, hindi ko magawa. Sana nga you'll keep your word.
Thanks ha?
{ music } domeng.sherwin.arlan.geoffrey having conversation about chinchintaberu :D
{ mood } stressed
Posted by kidbaliw
The girl was helpless and weak as she was comforted by his arms. Tears were about to roll down yet she held it back. She's having a hard time to loosen up and be real when they're together.
Inside of her mind there are a lot of things she wanted him to know.
"Why it's so hard to speak up?" She asked herself.
{ music } what hurts the most by rascal flatts
{ mood } scared
Posted by kidbaliw under real world
Listen. Focus. Be consistent.
Why is it when I'm trying my best to rise up from my pit I get pulled down? The numbers do not lie.
I feel really ashame for the mistake I had done. It's not a good start for me this month. T_T
{ music } great escape by boys like girls
{ mood } depressed
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world
"What will you do if I have 3 months to live?" he asked. She answered, "I'll make plans for us to travel and bring camera to capture the memories we'll create. Those pictures that will surely make me cry when you're gone"
"Besides I think it will be hard for me to move on since you'll be gone forever.." she added back. He just smiled back and thanked her. He told her, "I believe if that happens, I'll spend it with my siblings, my mom and with you most specially for the 3 remaining months I'll live here on earth."
The girl began to ponder if there are things she needs to know. Many disturbed questions filled her mind, is she going to undergo the same situation she had experienced in the past? The guy was afraid to tell her the truth but he assured her.. "You will know it soon. =)"
There are things better left unsaid..
Is this applicable on their situation right now?
{ music } bon and darwin chatting behind me
{ mood } scared
Posted by kidbaliw under real world
I was sorry yet you locked me out of your damn life.
Kaya mo e! Masyado kang mataas.. I can't reach you.
Cge lang. I wont bother you if that's what you want.. Fine!
{ music } what it is to burn by finch
{ mood } rejected
Posted by kidbaliw under real world
I was reading in my favorite website somewhere and this liner really got me affected.
I didn't say a thing. I left the silence between us and went on with my own thoughts. If he did love me, why did he cheat? Why did he make me feel as if I was just an old rag, which needed immediate replacement? Amidst my thoughts, I realized we were already halfway to my house. There were lots of things that we needed to discuss, but a voice in my head insisted that there isn't really much to talk about verbally. Michael cheated on me, and that was enough to end our relationship. Nothing – not even the "I love you, too's" and red roses he often gave me – can make me forgive him. How can I just smile and move on with the same man who made me cry a river? Snapshots of our past slowly appeared in my head at full length. The nights Michael used to walk me home, accompanied me to the grand ball, watched corny movies with me, sang songs at Encore, learned to play the guitar because he wanted to compose something for me, visited me in the hospital when I was diagnosed with potential anemia, and even went out at 12 midnight to buy me a bouquet of roses on the eve of our monthsary…when I opened my eyes, I suddenly realized that the car was already parked at the corner of our house. All I heard was the soft sounds of the crickets and nestling leaves of the trees nearby.
It's true that the person who had caused you so much pain is the only one antidote to cure one's insanities. Those sweet memories you guys had shared can turn into nightmares in an instant.
If love brings joy why it caused us so much pain? Why it's so fun for them to see other people struggled in pain?
Sabi nga ni bamboo sa una lang masaya ang love..
{ music } go on girl by neyo
{ mood } crushed
Posted by kidbaliw under liner
I hate myself. Im so good in hiding my real emotions.. Is it a skill? A gift? Or am I just scared to show to the world that I'm damn not strong?
Should I be grateful for having this fuckin' skill?
{ music } misery business by paramore
{ book } post in female network
{ mood } depressed
Posted by kidbaliw under reel world
I love your warmth when we make love. Your sweet gentle kisses takes my breath away. Those eyes as you lay them on me makes me weak. Your negativity turns me on so bad it makes me go wild.
Can you always be my baby?
{ music } Always Be My Baby by David Cook
{ show } Hanayori Dango 1
{ mood } artistic
Posted by kidbaliw under hidden letters
Im loving the serinity I'm feeling right now. Ewan ko ba I feel at peace today sa station ko though im actually in stress right now!
Mas okey pala na tahimik ka lang, hindi mo iniisip mga bagay bagay.. These days I don't find myself being perky and maingay at all times..
Also I find myself na hindi nagsasawa sa kanta ni David Cook 'Always be my baby'
you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
I don't know but masyado akong tinamaan sa kanta niya.. It gave me goosebumps nung una ko siyang pinakinggan.. At dahil kahapon mahaba ang avail time at buong araw ko siyang pinapakinggan.. ayun, nakapag compose ako! haha! Iniisip ko na kinakanta niya yun for me.. Ambisyosa! :D
I want to be like this from now on..
Saka masarap pala ang feeling pag kita mo ng malinaw yung mundong ginagalawan mo! I appreciate it! hehe.
At malapit na ang May.. woohoo!
{ music } 'Always Be My Baby' by David Cook :D
{ show } Hanayori Dango 1
{ mood } calm
Posted by kidbaliw under what I'm feeling
"Find you own happiness" -Bucket List
What if I started to..?
...Should I or should I not?
{ music } misery business by paramore
{ show } hanayori dango 2
{ mood } aggravated
Posted by kidbaliw under real world
She asked herself, "Did I done something wrong?"
He told her a promise that he'll be there to pacify her. As he walk her home, she listened as he opened up his problem. It's like nothing's wrong as far their relationship is concern.
As he wave his hand for goodbye she had her tears falling in her right cheek. "An hour to go.." she tell to herself.. She faked a smile as she also bid goodbye for him.
From "in relationship" status he changed to "complicated"..
Guys are hard to decipher. They show their strong but in reality they're not. They don't give a damn give a hint if everything's on the rock. Just one fuckin' day they'll blew up and say 'everything's finish between us' without thinking how will a girl feel.
She doesn't want to believe anything that comes from his mouth right now. She remember him saying.. "Did I told you that I'll leave you??".. "We need to work things out for this relationship to work"..
Why loving him gives her so much pain? She keeps understanding the situation and tears never stop falling from her cheeks.
"I love him so much it breaks me inside.. Can't he see my worth? Do I deserve to be treated this way? Is he over her?" She whispered it as the wind comforted her troubled soul.
No one knows how bitter she is right now.
{ music } don't speak by no doubt
{ show } bubble gang in radiostation website
{ mood } jealous
Posted by kidbaliw under real world
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