Entries for September, 2007
On my way home, I always see the beauty of sunrise which a sign for me to end my day from work. Pretty odd because people usually start their day when the sun is up and as for me I head my way to hit the sack and travel the world of dreams.
Waking up on a normal time, going to the mall with either my family or friends, listen to radio station (magic 89.9 of course), watching dvd's and surf the net are the things I usually do during my restdays.. I miss going to bar, party all night and dance my problems away..
Goodbye to happy-go-lucky person because I need to focus myself with my work. Some of my opinions in life had changed, what I wanted and needed which it may seem to be contrary way they were before.
August had brought me to sadness for three people had left me. I can't beg them to stay, I quietly thank them for the great memories they had shared with me. This month I should be ready to face new challenges, new people and extreme stress. I'm feeling that my stats are failing at the moment and I need to pull myself up to be able to prevent myself having a problem in the future..
I'm missing someone right now. I wanted to see him, feel him and have him in my arms again as we gaze the beauty of sunset... securing me that he will always be my big brother to calm my troubled soul..
...someday...someday..
{ music } agents speaking with customers
{ mood } determined
Posted by kidbaliw
no calls.. it feels so good!
anyway I was browsing in this site and I saw this good quote, here it goes..
"We can love someone and just be happy bout it even if we know that it can't last forever...
Its not bout having someone,
Its not bout being in a relationship,
But it is bout being happy because you know you have loved someone.
There's a purpose behind all events...
And this purpose develops you as a person.
Whatever relationship you have in your life,
its precisely the one you need at the moment... "
I was on my way home when I remembered a movie which entitled latter days. There is a reason why things happen, like the things that I had experienced... It may had brought me to misery but at the moment I'm building my life and putting back my life to how it was before.
Compare my life into a book, the people who had left me had done their role in my story.
I know.. I can't complain or ask for them to return.. Im not the writer of my own book.
God! I miss them!
{ music } Only Reminds Me Of You
{ mood } contemplative
Posted by kidbaliw
"Let us all remember that it is always better to have tried and failed than not to have tried and lived the rest of our lives regretting the chances we’ve missed and wondering what could have been if only we have listened to the silent cries of our hearts."
This quote had touched my heart as I surf joe d mango's page.. Looking back, I did the same quote up there. It was hard to be brave and telling to the guy I used to love my true feeling for him.
Now even if I'm broken, I don't have any regrets whenever I reminisce that event. I love him so much that I'm having a hard time getting myself again to new relationships..
Right now, I just give myself a time to heal.
{ music } big girls don't cry by fergie
Posted by kidbaliw
The first time I hit the floor, there are people whom I got intimidated. Like whenever I see them, my knees start to shiver..
Anyways as I get to know them, it seems that my first impression towards them are wrong.
Never judge a people unless you know them.. but I can't help it!
Posted by kidbaliw
I was waiting for a bus to arrive when suddenly a car stopped in front of me. The passenger window opened and a stranger caught my attention for a minute..
"Who are you?" my mind starts to wonder, he just smiled but I looked away..
Strangers.. I don't want to trust them anymore.. 
{ mood } sleepy
Posted by kidbaliw
It feels so good..
I managed not to have my urge take control over me..
There are certain things that we should limit ourself, they say enjoy life to the fullest.. right? I used to believed that but things changed. Saying no to somethings that you don't like to do is such a brave thing to do. I have realized that I should learn to give myself a respect, no longer fooling around or playing with fire with somebody. Loving ourself is the first thing we should do rather than expecting it from someone who can complete us.
Whew.. Im really a woman. 
{ music } agents speaking with our customers
{ mood } bouncy
Posted by kidbaliw
6 agonizing hours left before he leave the country for work. Im a bit upset because for the second time, I won't be there at the airport.
I wish I can log out of my station and swiftly go to his place.
bye mic?
{ mood } depressed
Posted by kidbaliw
"ui gusto sana kita makita at andito na ako sa workplace mo."
"sori ha, gusto lang talaga kita makita before ako umalis hindi kasi ako pwede gabihin"
"isang oras na ako andito sa workplace mo. sayang akala ko makikita na kita bago ako umalis.. cge xenxa sa istorbo ha, i love you"
-texts recieved around 9 - 10 pm
I read his message during my lunch around 12:45, it stabbed my heart the moment I read his text. I tried to contact the number he used but it was out of coverage.. It sucks!
Sob! I wanted to cry but I can't because of my work. Im angry because of his stupidity but I also felt ashamed because he waited for me yet I didn't came.. BUT I WAS ON CALL..
I hate this day.
{ music } big girls don't cry (remix)
{ mood } angry
Posted by kidbaliw
You inspired me to have a drive in my life again.
I know you are far away working your ass there and I had heard that life out there is not easy. In time I know we will be given a chance to speak what our hearts having inside. Im trying to understand our situation and hold on even if it causes me to wait in vain.
I'll be waiting for you.. i know it's pathethic but I don't care.
I'm willing to take a risk for you, please take good care of my heart.
Don't worry I take good care of our babies.. they're in good hands (*with knife on their necks)
hehe!
{ music } *playing in my mind* everytime i close my eyes by babyface
{ mood } gloomy
Posted by kidbaliw
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